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I Am a Loving Agitator



My deepest nature is shaped by my sensitivity, my empathy.

I register others experiences as my own.

From my earliest instinct, I gave care.

I have always sought to nurture, protect and heal others.


At the same time,

I Am also called to be a truth-teller

and from an inner fire,

I blaze ahead, calling-out uncomfortable truths, ghosts and skeletons.


I Am a loving agitator.


Often naive, I have been surprised by others’ reprimands and rejection instead of gratitude.

Crestfallen, I feel my fall from their graces.

Not only do I feel the resistance, the divide, the reversal

but I also experience the pain of being outcast (once again).

Denial gets protected,

and I am the one laden with making amends to fall back into the fold.


No longer can I concede to codependent anesthesia and stuckness.

No longer can I sympathize, enable, and temporarily tend to woundedness at our mutual cost.


So I stand my ground, as I stand alone.


Can you not see my loneliness as I forge ahead

determined to facilitate true healing and connection?

However, you may not feel seen

as your experienced hurt goes unreflected in my beliefs and actions.


I see the conundrum for us both.

I push because you are not ready,

and yet doesn’t someone need to call out the cracks?


I dream you would come to know that

what I really want most is core tribal safety

and determination to grow together.

I wish you could see that my challenges come from a place of deep love,

just as I see your resistance comes from a place of seeking safety.

I only wish that I could inspire you to see that the old tower we lived in no longer serves our highest good.


I want to chart new territory and have you join me in new paradigms.

As I forge ahead, my ongoing hope is that you will join me, driven by your own journey.

I imagine us sharing forgiveness, understanding and deep gratitude,

rechristening our kinship on higher ground.


As for now, I Am growing in the middle ground.

I care for my own vulnerability and insecurity

while still communicating my perceived truth.

I must honor my truth, as it is the power in my gift of being a loving agitator.

I steady myself to stay fully present when I am met with your disconnect.

I will stay my path of loving and honoring you exactly where you are at,

while I do not personalize your reactions.


I lovingly tend to my own feelings of rejection as I validate my tender sweet inner-empath.

I cheer and celebrate my tenacious spirit!

I turn to kindred spirits who can see and love me

for all of who I Am.


And, I hold onto hope

that we may one day actualize relationships where vulnerability is prized

and where we all communicate our heart-felt truths,

so that we may fully connect with tender loving care

and forge brave new growth,

together.

So May It Be!




 

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